Sunday, July 29, 2012

Tears Never Shed!


Letters written,
Never read.

Tears cried,
Never shed!

Too far apart to embrace
Bitter truth, they shall face

Their love, never meant to be
She knew it not, and nor did he

Letters written, each a plea
Wishing his sorrow she would see

He beseeched and he implored
While every letter, she ignored


In her silence, years passed and perished
His fading recollection, all that he cherished

Letters written,
Never read.

Tears cried,
Never shed!!!


Sunday, July 15, 2012

Breathless!


Quiet my mind, I cannot,
for I am restless;
haunted still, by my last image of you,
I am feeble, I am helpless.

I dreamed of you in my arms,
forever sheltered;
a dream that shattered so soon,
leaving me broken, baffled and bewildered.

A gift of life anew,
was our embrace;
but the bitter truth,
soon, I came to face.

Sweet tomorrow,
a dream fulfilled, I used to say;
the cruel tomorrow came,
and it took you away!

A thousand ways to kill a man,
it is no lie;
for there are so many ways
for me to die.

I was a fool,
little did I know;
soon, my end would come,
a death agonizing, and ever so slow.

Quiet my mind, I cannot,
for I am restless;
our love, my last breath of hope,
stolen from me mercilessly,
leaving me gasping and breathless!!!


(Photo by:  Ali Saadatmand)



Saturday, July 7, 2012

A LIFE LIVED!



A life lived,
many years cherished,
many wasted.

The fruit of youth,
those delightful years,
savored and tasted.

Laughter and tears,
defeats and triumphs,
through them all,
I’ve been tried and tested.

My heart, 
inexorable and relentless,  
yet broken many times over,
when it was the least expected!

My face,
withered and scared;
and the burden of it all,
deep within these wrinkles,
It has nested.

Future fuddled and obscure,
I know not what may come;
standing tall, I will remain,
for I am far too invested!!!











Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Swallow's Flight!



Perching on a red roof tile, sat the bird swallow;
pondering her faith, deciding,
whether the flock or her defiant heart to follow.

In that hour of wind and light,
the brave swallow took her flight...

She soared in the vast sky,
unwavering and steadfast;
abandoning consensus,
and convention of generations past.

Aiming for the distant land,
far in the west;
dreaming only of warmth,
and of her new clay nest!

Days and nights, she spent in flight;
no one knows of her pain and plight.

Dashing in the skies with rapid wing,
only to a dream, her heart would cling.

Beneath the rain bearing clouds,
the light of moon, her path guides.

Of her fate, no one knows;
but my eagerness, 
it still grows.

She will arrive one day soon;
I’ll see her in the skies beneath the moon.

Arriving home, tired and weary,
now in the past, a life dreary.

On my roof the brave little swallow will land;
the cherished moment, her ultimate aim, finally at hand.

Once again,
Perching on a red roof tile,
The brave swallow will make me smile!!!







Saturday, June 30, 2012

Peddler Child




Far too close,
to the street peddler,
a speeding car passes by.

In an instant startled;
in a fleeting second stunned.

The wild flower bouquet,
meets the punishing pavement,
as his weary hand loses its grip.

Shaking,
abashed and ashamed,
fretted and teary eyed,
scattered flowers,
he endeavors to salvage,
in haste.

What we see, you and I,
dispersed,
in red and yellow,
is far from what his eyes see!

Worthless wildflowers,
to you and I;
livelihood, pride,
a proud mother’s smile,
to this peddler child.

Petals crushed,
smeared and smashed,
his descending tears kiss;
tears of shame,
a child remiss!


Fragile and frail,
is life to us all.
Hangs by a reedy thread
Our fate after all!







Saturday, June 23, 2012

Canary!




Behold, you beholder, behold!
The story of the caged “canary” is but once told.

What beauty do your eyes see
when you gaze through the bars?

What music do you hear
when the interned canary cries?

Canary, canary, caged for all to see…
Canary, canary, how you long to be free…


Her story, one and of the same kind;
Beautiful on the outside,
though forever trapped,
behind the bars of her own mind!!!!

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Woman!!!







Woman…
your voice,
soothing music of angels,
echoes in the depths of my soul.

Woman…
your skin,
a meadow in the garden of Eden…

Woman…
I, filled with desire,
and you,
a beacon,
calling me home.

Woman…
your touch,
soft,
warm,
and yet electrifying;
pushing me to the edge of insanity!

Woman…
I trace your every curve;
they captivate
and seduce my senses.

Woman…
Your scent
I inhale,
“a warm summer breeze”!!!



Thursday, May 31, 2012

HAVE YOU EVER?...




Have you ever?
Have you ever felt so alone,
that your own reflection in the mirror was company?

Have you ever?
Have you ever felt so much anger, rage and fury,
that your fingertips felt as though they were going to explode?

Have you ever?
Have you ever been so suffocated in silence,
that your own skin felt like a shackled restraint?

Have you ever?
Have you ever entombed so much disappointment,
that the decaying stench of it made you bilious?

Have you ever?
Have you ever?

The hopeful and buoyant reflection in the mirror calls:

Tomorrow, is yet a new day…
Once more,
you will wash away the corrosion of day past.
Once more,
you will go to your closet of masks,
and put on a new façade for the day anew!

Tomorrow, is yet a new day…
Yet, a new stage…
To play the fictitious “brave”.

Mystified and baffled,
at my reflection I gaze…
and my own voice echoes once more:

Tomorrow, is yet a new day…
A new day to scream in silence!!!



Saturday, May 12, 2012

UNTIL THE LAST MOMENT





FLEETING AND EVER EVANESCENT,
FRAILTY AND FRAGILITY LIE BENEATH YOUR HARDENED SHELL;
MORE OF YOU, I CANNOT STEAL OR BARGAIN,
FOR NO ONE WILL EVER SELL!!!

AROUND EACH FAMILIAR CORNER AND BENEATH THE SHADOWS OF UNCERTAINTY,
SELF ASSURED, I TRAVEL FAST, 
YET, FEARFUL OF THE INEVITABLE EVENTUALITY!

NO BEACON TO GUIDE ME HOME AND NO COMPASS TO SHOW THE WAY;
I WALK THIS MAZE, AMAZED AT ITS ENORMITY, ADRIFT AND ASTRAY.

MY AIM, EVER-CHANGING OR SET IN STONE;
THE END OF THIS TALE, NO ONE HAS EVER KNOWN.

STEADFAST AND UNWAVERING,
I STEER THIS SHIP THIS WAY AND THAT;
IN THIS ENIGMATIC AND INSCRUTABLE GAME,
WHO IS THE MOUSE, AND WHO IS THE CAT?

ANSWERS I SEEK IN EVERY STEP OF THE WAY,
CHOICES INFINITE, THE RIGHT PATH, WHO IS TO SAY?

DISDAIN OR REVERENCE?
ADMIRATION OR CONTEMPT?
UTTERLY IN AWE AND FILLED WITH WONDERMENT;
I, A PENDULUM, 
VACILLATING BETWEEN CLARITY AND BEWILDERMENT.

YET, UNYIELDING AND OBSTINATE,
I RECOMMENCE AND PERSIST.
UNTIL THE LAST MOMENT,
SURRENDER OR DEFEAT, I WILL RESIST...!

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

From me to my heart…



From me to my heart…

Tonight, and in this moment of solitude
Free of wantedness
Sheltered from the falling rain of desire
Naked and bare, without the armor of pride
And unshackled from lust
I speak to you humbled, for confess to you, I must

In our run, and thus far in our pursuits
We have been relentless
Selfish, perhaps at times, but our nature, still selfless

We have had our share
Of both, fair and unfair

We have been beaten, and we have seen defeat
We have seen trickery, and we have seen deceit

We have been deserted and scorned
Through it all, together, you and I have mourned

My face has aged, and my hair ashen
No choice, for we all have to take our ration

Broken and blemished, yet unyielding and resolute
You have walked by my side in this pursuit

Your fractures
Scars of my defeats
Marks of my blunders and missteps

Wear them with honor as I do this graying hair

Your forgiveness I seek my beloved heart
You, my faithful companion,
We will never be apart...!


Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Story Untold!



Ask me…
Who are you?
And I shall tell you who I aspire to be.

Ask me where I have come from.
And I shall tell you what has brought me here.

Ask me why I am here.
And I shall tell you where I have been.

Ask me how I feel.
And I shall tell you about a scream caged in silence.

Ask me what I believe in.
And I shall tell you how I lost all faith.

Ask me…
Ask me my name!
And I shall tell you a story untold!!!...





Monday, April 30, 2012

Dance of Desire...




When fingertips are filled with curiosity;
when pupils dilate ravenously for maximum exposure;
when the skin itches for a single touch;
when lips thirst for a single kiss;
when the slightest glimpse and the most subtle of curves become potent aphrodisiacs;
when hearts beat restlessly in anticipation of togetherness,
time and space lose all meaning;
senses heighten and feral imagination reigns;
intoxicating delight runs through the veins of two bodies
yearning to join together in a blissful dance of desire!!!



Friday, March 2, 2012

I Feel YOU!!!



In every drop of rain,
in every wave of the ocean,
and in every gentle breeze,
I feel you…

Under the blanket of the morning fog,
in the purple clouds of each sunset,
and in every flicker of light in the night sky,
I feel you…

In the beat of my own heart,
in the silence of my solitude,
I feel you…

At the height of ecstasy or the depth of anguish,
I feel vibrant and effervescent;
simply because,
I feel you…

No greater treasure,
than to have you flow in my veins;
no higher privilege,
than to share every breath…

I feel YOU!!!

 

Friday, December 30, 2011

Where were you?


Where were you?
When I cried out your name,
and heard not even my own echo…

Where were you?
When I walked in haste and bewildered among the crowds;
every face bearing your likeness, and yet
YOU were no where to be found…

Where were you?
When a single kind word uttered through your sweet lips, 
was the only remedy to my ill faded affliction…

Where were you?
When lost in thought and lost in time,
I watched days slip into nights and nights into days;
as I stared through the window of my memories!

Burned and broken, void of all pride;
a fetus, crouched in a corner of an empty room;
I took refuge in the womb of your silence…

Where were you?
Where were you?
Where were you?

My incubation, pain and sorrow;
my gestation, mourning and regret…
A seedling of change,
I was reborn, 
an orphan!!!


Tuesday, December 27, 2011

DREAM...



Slowly roused from a solemn slumber…
No longer dreaming… but yet, still lost in a dream…

Heedless of time, neglectful of my surroundings…
I strain to hold onto the images that rush through my mind’s eye…
Sweet remnants of a reverie…
Passing by just as fast as they vanish from my conscious memory for ever…

Unreservedly, I float in endless time and space…
Unleashed from the perils of the conscious mind…

At the core, I am one with the essence…
Nay, I AM the essence!

Time, futile and meaningless…
I am untainted and unalloyed!

Drowned and saturated with utter love!
I am immersed in a dance…
With YOU!!!





Friday, October 21, 2011

برگ پاییز - Autumn Leaf



...من تنها، من شیدا
...بی‌ تو گریان
!غرق در بوسه‌‌های اشک



...من مسافر، تویی پایان
...راه خود باخته
!حیرانم در این میان

...چشمان چو دریا
...
...گوهر دیده نثار تو کردم


...با این هدایا، با این گوهر ها، آشوفتهٔ عشق
...قلب خود قربانی معبد تو کردم



...جز اسارت، جز حقارت
...نصیبم نشد چیز دگر

...دست بسته، دل‌ شکسته
...همچو برگ پاییزی

!!!فرش زیر پای تو بود مرا پایان





Wednesday, September 7, 2011

I, the MIRROR, or my own REFLECTION?



I, a stranger, even to my own self it seems…
As I sit in solitude and stare at my own reflection…

Details blur and blur even more, illegible and unfamiliar…
How did I ever come to deserve this affliction?...

I have traveled this road, so long and so far…
An accomplished traveler to many, yet unacquainted with my own destination…

Who am I, and what purpose do I serve?...
What were the significance and the consequence of my conception?

A son, a brother, a friend, or a lover? The creator or the creation?...
Playing the part in the theater of LIFE, engrossed and obsessed with utter perfection…

Mind, body and soul, intermingled into an indecipherable illusion…
This trinity, my golden cage, how can I break free from this triangulation?...

Agonizing search for the truth of it all, these days, my only companion…
Determined, and yet uncertain of the merit of my own dissertation…

When the observer is observed, and the perceiver perceived…
Which is existent, genuine and real? I, the MIRROR, or my own REFLECTION?!!!






Saturday, August 20, 2011

Trapped!!!


Present time, halted…  Tomorrow concealed…
Can’t see the future, for the past…

Memories, haunting me still…
How long will the dreadful nightmare last?

Broken, into infinite pieces, little by little…
Whole on the outside, and yet, lost in this cosmic vast…

Trusting?  No longer and never more…
My faith in purity and propriety, I’m losing fast…

Fatigued and weary of self reflection, yet in this mirror I still gaze…
Trapped inside myself, wishing desperately to break this cast!!!


Saturday, June 18, 2011

A Note to My English-Speaking Readers


My dearest English-Speaking readers (old and new):  

Although all of the work I have published thus far is in English, I do, from time to time, write poems in my native language (Farsi) because in certain cases the true essence of what I try to capture and convey is best done in that language.

I thought about providing an English translation of the poems along with the original, but as you probably know, a lot gets lost in translation from one language to another.  Especially in poetry, as the poem loses its delicate use of words and rhymes once translated.

The following two posts are poems written in Farsi because I could best capture their essence in that language.  

If you are a new English-speaking reader, simply scroll down passed these two posts (or use the BLOG ARCHIVE navigation on the right) to read the content written in English.


Kami

Friday, June 17, 2011

!مگو





ندا دادم, صدا کردم وفریاد زدم که ای یار من کجایی, کجایی؟
از دور شنیدمش گریان و گریزان و در قصد رهایی

گفتمش که دل تنگم و از تو بی خبرم
گفت از دل تنگی و بی خبری رنج مبر و هیچ مگو

گفتمش ز عشق و ز درد دوری و نیاز
گفت ز عشق و ز دردت دگر هیچ مگو

گفتمش من انم که غمش تیره کند روز
گفت بار غمت به دوش بگیر و از غم هیچ مگو

گفتمش که خانه ام بی تو متروکست و خاموش
گفت از این خانه برو, از تاریکی و خاموشی دگر هیچ مگو

گفتمش که دل بسته ام به تو، من عاشقم
گفت از دلبستگی و عاشقی هیچ مگو

گفتمش که دلم تشنه چو صحراست
گفت باران ز ابر دگر جوی وز تشنگی دگر هیچ مگو


گفتمش ای یار شیرین، خاموشم مساز
!گفت خاموش بمان و به من دگر هیچ مگو


Saturday, May 21, 2011

!بگو




...بگو, ای یار من, بگو
...از خود بگو
...از من بگو
...از ما بگو

...از عشق بی پروا بگو
...از شادی و از غم بگو
...از بسیاری و از کم بگو

...بگو
...از بوسه های اتشین
...از لحظه های اخرین
...از اسمان و از کهکشان بگو

...ندانم دگر انچه بود و انچه هست
...!ز فردای این دل بی سامان بگو

...بگو تو ای یگانه شیرین زبان
...بگو تو ای یگانه یار من
!!!بگو


Friday, May 6, 2011

RAVEN'S CALL!

The initial interrogation and the complimentary beating concluded!

He was then barely eighteen years of age.  Terrified, bleeding, and in pain – still wearing the heavy and odorous wool bag over his head (used as a blindfold and a measure to keep the identity of the guards and the interrogators secret) – he was guided by a guard down the hallway…

All he could see was the dirty vinyl floor beneath his feet.

Turn to your left and stop.  The guard commanded.
He heard the clanking of a heavy metal latch followed by the screeching sound of the metal door as it swung open on its rusty hinges.

The guard, now standing directly behind him, in a swift move, removed the blindfold and simultaneously kicked him in the middle of his spine.
Unable to breath and disoriented, it took him a few seconds to realize what had just happened…  He found himself, now, inside the holding cell as he heard the metal door screech again as it was shut behind him…

The cell, a very cold and damp 5’X5’ room with walls painted in pistachio green which held six prisoners (including him).  They had all crouched over sitting on the floor and leaning against the walls.  They all had wrapped themselves with standard army-issue blankets to keep warm. 
Prisoners shuffled around to open up room for him to sit.
The floor was covered with more than 20 blankets, but they were all damp and cold.

Now sitting against the wall with his knees under his chin, still bleeding from his mouth, nose, and the corner of his left eye, he surveyed his surroundings.  The cell was lit with a single 60 watt light bulb mounted on the high ceiling, had a very small 8”X12” window above reach, barred and missing glass.  It was snowing outside, and because of the broken window the wind blew snow inside the cell and it was collecting in a smile pile in the middle of the room.

To his right, sat a Kurdish man in his late forties.  His name was Ghader (meaning able).  He seemed warm hearted and kind and was genuinely concerned for the young man’s condition.
Where were you arrested? Ghader asked him.
Outside the city of Khoy right at the three-way pass. The young man replied.
Just a month ago-before I got arrested-WE were in control of that road and we were arresting these damn Hezbollah pigs. Ghader proudly proclaimed.


Two days passed.  Same routine…  Interrogation, beating, and back to the cell.
On the third day, as he was sharing a hardened loaf of bread with Ghader for breakfast, they heard a raven’s call outside the window.  It was odd and unusual because the raven didn’t stop and went on for at least 10 minutes.
Ghader turned to him and said: The raven’s call…  It is an omen of good luck.  Something good will happen today.  I promise.

Later on that day, at 11:30 pm to be exact, the Guards came and took Ghader away.
A few minutes later Ghader’s screams and cries echoed through the entire cell block.  20 minutes later, everything went silent!

At 2:00 am the guards came back.
They called him by name and announced that it was time for his trial.  They asked him to put on the head cover once again as they slid it through the small hatch in the cell door used for passing food and water. 
He did as he was instructed.
And as the guards walked and guided him down the hallway and away from the cell, once again, all he could see was the dirty vinyl flooring beneath his feet.  But this time, it was stained with blood.  Ghader’s blood on the floor as they dragged his lifeless body from the interrogation room to god knows where.

He was tried and freed that night...  
And now, decades later, still, every time he hears a Raven’s call, he is reminded of Ghader’s claim that it was an omen.  
An omen that foretold his freedom and Ghader’s death!



With that, I will give you my latest painting:  Raven’s Call