HAVE YOU EVER?...

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt so alone,

that your own reflection in the mirror was company?

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt so much anger, rage and fury,

that your fingertips felt as though they were going to explode?

Have you ever?

Have you ever been so suffocated in silence,

that your own skin felt like a shackled restraint?

Have you ever?

Have you ever entombed so much disappointment,

that the decaying stench of it made you bilious?

Have you ever?

Have you ever?

…

The hopeful and buoyant reflection in the mirror calls:

Tomorrow, is yet a new day…

Once more,

you will wash away the corrosion of day past.

Once more,

you will go to your closet of masks,

and put on a new façade for the day anew!

Tomorrow, is yet a new day…

Yet, a new stage…

To play the fictitious “brave”.

Mystified and baffled,

at my reflection I gaze…

and my own voice echoes once more:

Tomorrow, is yet a new day…

A new day to scream in silence!!!

UNTIL THE LAST MOMENT

FLEETING AND EVER EVANESCENT,

FRAILTY AND FRAGILITY LIE BENEATH YOUR HARDENED SHELL;

MORE OF YOU, I CANNOT STEAL OR BARGAIN,

FOR NO ONE WILL EVER SELL!!!

AROUND EACH FAMILIAR CORNER AND BENEATH THE SHADOWS OF UNCERTAINTY,

SELF ASSURED, I TRAVEL FAST, 

YET, FEARFUL OF THE INEVITABLE EVENTUALITY!

NO BEACON TO GUIDE ME HOME AND NO COMPASS TO SHOW THE WAY;

I WALK THIS MAZE, AMAZED AT ITS ENORMITY, ADRIFT AND ASTRAY.

MY AIM, EVER-CHANGING OR SET IN STONE;

THE END OF THIS TALE, NO ONE HAS EVER KNOWN.

STEADFAST AND UNWAVERING,

I STEER THIS SHIP THIS WAY AND THAT;

IN THIS ENIGMATIC AND INSCRUTABLE GAME,

WHO IS THE MOUSE, AND WHO IS THE CAT?

ANSWERS I SEEK IN EVERY STEP OF THE WAY,

CHOICES INFINITE, THE RIGHT PATH, WHO IS TO SAY?

DISDAIN OR REVERENCE?

ADMIRATION OR CONTEMPT?

UTTERLY IN AWE AND FILLED WITH WONDERMENT;

I, A PENDULUM, 

VACILLATING BETWEEN CLARITY AND BEWILDERMENT.

YET, UNYIELDING AND OBSTINATE,

I RECOMMENCE AND PERSIST.

UNTIL THE LAST MOMENT,

SURRENDER OR DEFEAT, I WILL RESIST...!

From me to my heart…

From me to my heart…

Tonight, and in this moment of solitude

Free of wantedness

Sheltered from the falling rain of desire

Naked and bare, without the armor of pride

And unshackled from lust

I speak to you humbled, for confess to you, I must

In our run, and thus far in our pursuits

We have been relentless

Selfish, perhaps at times, but our nature, still selfless

We have had our share

Of both, fair and unfair

We have been beaten, and we have seen defeat

We have seen trickery, and we have seen deceit

We have been deserted and scorned

Through it all, together, you and I have mourned

My face has aged, and my hair ashen

No choice, for we all have to take our ration

Broken and blemished, yet unyielding and resolute

You have walked by my side in this pursuit

Your fractures

Scars of my defeats

Marks of my blunders and missteps

Wear them with honor as I do this graying hair

Your forgiveness I seek my beloved heart

You, my faithful companion,
We will never be apart...!

Story Untold!

Ask me…

Who are you?

And I shall tell you who I aspire to be.

Ask me where I have come from.

And I shall tell you what has brought me here.

Ask me why I am here.

And I shall tell you where I have been.

Ask me how I feel.

And I shall tell you about a scream caged in silence.

Ask me what I believe in.

And I shall tell you how I lost all faith.

Ask me…

Ask me my name!

And I shall tell you a story untold!!!...